an evening on sunday

Drizzle has turned to fat rain pouring out to the earth and some splashed onto the glass window next to where i am sitting now..i was just enjoying the dampness of the atmosphere for few minutes then the sun appeared again and i dont know how long it will shine till it rain again or probably not , by the look and the warmness of the temperature , the rain is seems unwelcome.



Whatever the weather is or how many time it change itself it wont make any different to how i felt right now.Not many things to do except for the daily errands and the study hour for me to accomplish.The feeling of emptiness and sometimes loneliness have been inside me since long ago but its doesnt seems bother me much this day, i had too many of those days and i have learnt to stand and held my head up high.

This moment its not about how i have been so stupid or how weak i was after that 'something' in my life didnt work out but it is all about how much i have learn to move further and turn my head to the positive side of life and eventually be grateful for where i am now.There were moments when i felt so hopeless but today there are so much of things ahead of me that i wanted to achieve and couldnt wait to get there.I am at the stage in my life where theres no turning point , i either go ahead with the dreams or i let them go.But that never is my choice , letting them go is never the option except for some of the days that i felt so much of pressure but then i looked around me , i saw my friends who struggling just like me so i felt not alone and i know i have to finish what i have started.
Avoiding our routine or rather stop doing things that makes us happy is the most harderst part, at least for me. I will never forget how much it enervated me every single moment and it felt like nothing left in me by the end of the day but apparently the things that almost look like weakest point of my life has turned into positive thing that still growing in me.Apart from that, i have learn that avoiding or walking away is the smartest things to do if its only cause our life to stumble .Its barely a month from that turning point in my life but i have found load of things for myself to be indulge with and be happier than ever.

The sun still shine brightly outside as i glanced at my watch its only almost 3pm , no wonder.I have been sitting at this corner for hours now ignoring any sign of life around me as i am so into my reading then surfing then browsing then writing and listening to my favourite love songs.I thought i heard another sound, yea it is.... the rambling sound of my stomach as i missed my lunch.